I was not able to update my blog for quite sometime… this is not because I am busy at work. In fact I vacationed myself from work for two weeks now- well most of my workload I dispatched except for a few articles to write. So what happened? I got burnout. From there, I am feeling a lot of physical symptoms that truly challenged my health. During those times, I was brought to the hospital for difficulty of breathing, chest pain, numbness and severe headache. My nerves were all shaking and i could not help myself but cried. It took me awhile to accept that I am actually experiencing depression…God knows to what degree. There were psychological struggles like fear of things. My emotions are unstable and I am overwhelmed by the feeling of rejection.
I am trying to recall what brought me into this condition but my mind shuts me down. And i could feel my nerves trembling inside. I must have been in pain, hurt and wounded for quite a long time. Though I have ignored the actual blows of those pain, subconsciously it has been eating me inside… so this is what I got.
I am told to release all those burdens. But I do not know how. I am not the type of person who loves to talk about my inner feelings. I tend to shut myself out if I feel threatened, or abused, or oppressed. I tend to cope up – so I thought that I am- by isolating myself away from anyone or anything that is harming me.
My immediate resolution now is to talk slowly about it in my blog… from time to time…Yes I will talk.
Hello. I had this feeling (unexplained fear inside) for years. And I must say that I still have it from time to time. I am a nurse and I can say that it can be a syndrome of the nervous exhaustion. It is something that makes 70% of the adult population suffers. You know, as for me, the best way to rid off the depression is to make a “good thing” e.g. to feed birds, or to help a friend with something or make a humble donation. It makes me feel good. What can be better then to make people smile?
hello…thanks for dropping by my blog and thank you also for leaving a comment. It is comforting to know that people like you care…even to a cyber-stranger like me. Yes, I agree that doing something perhaps to divert attention is also therapeutic. Again thanks…
It’s me who must say “thank you”! You have found a great theme to read and talk about.